Part of me wants to grab you, kiss you, and never let you go! The other half just wants you to disappear and take these damn memories with you. My heart is black. And I’m hurting people who don’t deserve it. I wish I could let others in. But you are the third person I have let in, that left days later…. I just can’t take it anymore. Love me, or love her. But you can’t do both. Just know you will always have a place in my heart…
And it feels goooood.
You were right, I don’t love you.
I loved the thought of you. Of us.
But you’re someone new now.
I don’t know this you, I don’t like this you.
I feel free.
It’s a good feeling.
Today will be a good day.
Loneliness is better than explaining why you’re not in the mood to deal with annoying people who think they’re funny -_-
When the pain sneaks up.
When it’s hard to remember, it gets better.
When I feel alone.
When I can’t shut my brain off, long enough to sleep.
When walls crumble.
When I close my eyes, I see everything I’ve shut out.
I’m getting out all of my emotions tonight.
And tomorrow, I will be happy.
Fuck my brain.
Fuck my heart.
Fuck my tears.
everyone who has hurt me.
I will smile.
Whether I deserve it or not, I will be happy.
Some how, some way…